Intro to Limbo

Tonight, I decided to write....

I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately, writing... I feel like I’ve had a lot to write about, which is an interesting feeling because I’ve never felt that way before. More I think I’ve been realizing there is a lot I would LIKE to write about - even NEED to write about, if only to organize it and sort out the jumbled mess in my pre-graduation stressed, overloaded mind. I’ve been looking for a comfort away from everything I worry about all day: schedules, bills, work, classes, law school applications, job search, graduation.... I need something to keep me from panicking that my lease in Fort Worth with my best friends ends on May 22 and I have to have somewhere else to go. I have 4 months to plan my next move, and I have no idea what I want it to be... but I can’t wait! Don’t get me wrong, I’m scared about of my mind! I know its ridiculous, but there is so much to do! And besides, is this chapter really over??

I need a way to organize the frenzy of thoughts in my heads about possibilities and responsibilities, and at the same time a way to escape it - a new focus that is just for fun. Something for me. And so, I decided to write. It’s supposed to be therapeutic, right? It won’t be perfect, it may never be read by anyone but me.. but it will be out THERE. Outside of me (which is the whole point, see?). My first attempt at journaling will be a pseudo-blog (a blog if its ever read by anyone else I guess) about my life as a college student in limbo: attempting to support herself, graduate, apply to law school? find a job? and find an escape from it all.

It’s time for a personal challenge. The year 2010 is going to be a year full of changes. I can either let it pass me by in a whirlwind for fear that some changes may be too huge to make, or I can choose to make small choices first and move up to the big choices as they come along.

So my first choice - Do things for me: Cook. Exercise. Write.

On that note, Perroti’s pizza just delivered dinner - I know it contradicts the “cook” part of the resolution but it’s too cold outside to go to the store!